Ok, so we worked things out. Sort of. We said we'd be friends, but we wouldn't deny our feelings. Saying and doing are 2 different things. We went on a fun weekend retreat with the group, and it was something we were both looking forward to, so that we could be in a fun setting with all our friends, and with eachother, to really have some fun. We eneded up acting like b/f and g/f more than ever this time. No physical things or anything. Just things. It didnt go unoticed. Me and his Mom ended up talkin b4 the weekend was over, and just establishing things, and growing way closer. I am so thankful for that! After her and I talked, me and him talked. We decided ok, we can do this, we're just gonna cut off the romantic stuff. We've gotta know we can be friends, plus, it's not the right time for me, and him anyway. I'm busy, he's busy, we both like eachother so much that it would be a serious relationship, which Im scured of right now. For many reasons...

I have the hardest time in the world trusting guys now. I've been lied to, munipulated, taken advantage of, and hurt incredibly by guys. I don't think I could take having anything else happen to me right now, without me deciding to never get married!

I'm not ready. It's hard work to maintain a truly pure, righteous, Godly relationship. Resisting temptation, not putting yourself in a situation to be tempted, keeping yourself accountable to authority about the relationship. I also think its very important to be independant, before youre in a serious relationship. Having a job, friends, other responsibilities, and activities outside of the relationship.

I'm still trying to work on the "Satan-given" gene all girls have (seduction/munipulation/(b)itchiness(for lack of a better word)). I have that pretty much under control. I've been learning how to not be that way, for the past 6 months or so. But I think it'll take awhile to keep it up, before it's really under control.

We're both not ready. Plus, for the past weeks, I've actually had a great time, being just friends. It's fun. I mean yeah I miss romance, seeing as how I am a hopeless romantic, but I know this is the right thing. So does he. And we're fine.

Now, lets see how long this attitude lasts...