I have just discovered the real, true meaning of love - Selflessness. I don't care what I want with him. I care about what he needs. What is good for him. Not necesarily what he wants, but what he needs. He doesn't need me. He needs his family, he needs his friends, he needs God. I mean I am his friend, but he doesn't need me anyother way. I don't need him anyother way either. He's been an awesome friend to me. I could never repay him, for the things he has taught me, and helped me go through. He's different. He's real. He's not trying to impress me. He's not lazy. He's not obsessed. He's not without ambition. He's real. And he's going through his life with God. I'm so proud of him. He may not know it, but I am.

Selflessness. Im not what he needs right now. So that's why Im backing off. My feelings will no longer be an issue. I'm not gonna be anything other than a friend to him right now. Lord knows, I love him. And I mean I do. That's why, Im not gonna act on my feelings for him. I know God is in control, and he's taking care of everything. God has me right in his hand. And that's right where I wanna be.